Monday, January 26, 2009

痛苦的画(Works On Depression)

直至今日,这病还没有断根。最近一名医生告诉我说:“Mr Wong,我相信你已经药物上瘾了!尽量减少药量吧!”

In year 1992, I was diagnosed with anxiety panic attack – a kind of depression.
From then on, I began my long journey on medication…
Until this day, the symptoms still persist. Recently, a doctor told me, “Mr Wong, I believe you must be ‘hooked on drugs’ already! Try cutting down dosage please!”
“…but I can’t do without medication! If I don’t take medication, I can’t work! And who will support me if I don’t work?” I thought to myself.


These three works on “Depression” thus evolved from dealing with this ailment bondage:


“Depression #01” shows a pale grey question mark ‘?’ in the middle of the painting – as if posing queries about how I ever got into this sickness. At the same time, I use a twisted body to express the suffering caused by it. The medicine capsules are also seen spilling around…
There, in the midst, shows a sprouting shoot – symbolizing the meagre amount of trust in God, but also believing this little faith to grow eventually.



“Depression #02” shows a crossroad, mirroring my dilemmas of not knowing which direction to take often times – should I continue to depend on drugs? Or intervene through prayers? Or depend on certain exercises to overcome? What about “urine treatment”?



“Depression #03” exaggerates the twists and turns of the body, preceding the first two works. Three arrows appear in the painting – sideways (eastwards and westwards), and downwards (southwards) – suggesting I must have used “human” methods to deal with my struggles too often. (There is no upwards/northwards arrow – perhaps hinting rarely applying “God’s” methods in solving problems?)



P.S. : Depression #01 and #03 include a small cream container for skin problems – revealing the fact that besides depression, I am also affected by eczema (skin sensitivity) at times!

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