Monday, January 26, 2009

痛苦的画(Works On Depression)

一九九二年,我被医生诊断患有忧郁症。
从那时起,我便开始了漫长的药物疗程。
直至今日,这病还没有断根。最近一名医生告诉我说:“Mr Wong,我相信你已经药物上瘾了!尽量减少药量吧!”
“但我不吃不行呀!不吃便工作不了!不工作那谁来养我?”我心里想着。


In year 1992, I was diagnosed with anxiety panic attack – a kind of depression.
From then on, I began my long journey on medication…
Until this day, the symptoms still persist. Recently, a doctor told me, “Mr Wong, I believe you must be ‘hooked on drugs’ already! Try cutting down dosage please!”
“…but I can’t do without medication! If I don’t take medication, I can’t work! And who will support me if I don’t work?” I thought to myself.


这三幅“忧郁”作品便跟这病有关:

These three works on “Depression” thus evolved from dealing with this ailment bondage:


“忧郁一号”内里有一个浅灰色的大问号-似乎对自个患上这病存有不解。也同时藉着扭曲打结的身体来表现出患病的苦楚。除外也将药物散布在身体的四周...且还有一粒豆长出幼苗来-意指对上帝的信心仅剩那么的一丁点而已...但也相信这一点点的会逐渐茁壮。

“Depression #01” shows a pale grey question mark ‘?’ in the middle of the painting – as if posing queries about how I ever got into this sickness. At the same time, I use a twisted body to express the suffering caused by it. The medicine capsules are also seen spilling around…
There, in the midst, shows a sprouting shoot – symbolizing the meagre amount of trust in God, but also believing this little faith to grow eventually.



忧郁一号,混合媒介,三尺长四尺宽,二〇〇八年。

“忧郁二号”里有一十字路口,这意味着自己常觉得不知该朝哪一个方向奔去-是应该继续靠药物呢?还是藉着祷告?又或者可藉着某项特别的体操运动来克服?尿疗法又可不可行呢?

“Depression #02” shows a crossroad, mirroring my dilemmas of not knowing which direction to take often times – should I continue to depend on drugs? Or intervene through prayers? Or depend on certain exercises to overcome? What about “urine treatment”?

忧郁二号,混合媒介,三尺长四尺宽,二〇〇八年。

“忧郁三号”里的人物身体会比一号和二号更大幅度的扭曲夸大。图中出现了三个分别朝左,右和下的灰色箭头-这比着我常会应用“人”的方法来解决自身的病痛问题。(图中可见到没有朝上的箭头-意味着没有应用属“神”的方发来解决问题?)

“Depression #03” exaggerates the twists and turns of the body, preceding the first two works. Three arrows appear in the painting – sideways (eastwards and westwards), and downwards (southwards) – suggesting I must have used “human” methods to deal with my struggles too often. (There is no upwards/northwards arrow – perhaps hinting rarely applying “God’s” methods in solving problems?)


忧郁三号,混合媒介,三尺长四尺宽,二〇〇八年。

注:忧郁一号和三号里有加绘了一小罐医疗皮肤病的药膏-除了忧郁症外,我也常因皮肤敏感而苦恼不已!


P.S. : Depression #01 and #03 include a small cream container for skin problems – revealing the fact that besides depression, I am also affected by eczema (skin sensitivity) at times!

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Worry or Trust


I admit that I have been a person who always worries a lot! Sometimes it is like a merry-go-round – non-stop! Worry that this thing may end up badly…; and after worrying about this thing, I will begin to worry whether another thing may get worse or not in future… At the end of the day, I discover that worry doesn’t make sense! Worry shows that I never put my trust in God, and even worse - worry may also even make things worse!

Ok! Since worry cannot help me solve my problem, then what’s the point of worrying? Might as well believe in God positively (because it will end up making me happy!)! Just simply believe that God will help me handle my every problem, right? Trusting God is a positive act, and eventually it will produce a peaceful heart and care less! No matter what the outcome of my problem may be, I am acceptable and favoured in God’s eyes as His righteous son redeemed by the blood of Jesus; and the worldly opinions simply do not matter anymore, compared to God’s (my Heavenly Father’s) great love for me… Amen!

Friday, January 02, 2009

Today...


Today (2nd January 2009), I sold out 4 pieces of my paintings, even before my exhibition started! God is good all the time! He knows my thoughts, even those deep in my heart! He always puts me at the right place at the right time! I had just delivered my paintings to the gallery today, and after settling down everything, out of the blue one of my clients appeared, and decided to buy 4 paintings from me! Wow! What a good start for the new year 2009!

I believe God’s blessings will continue to follow me all of my life…