从那时起，我便开始了漫长的药物疗程。
直至今日，这病还没有断根。最近一名医生告诉我说：“Mr Wong，我相信你已经药物上瘾了！尽量减少药量吧！”
“但我不吃不行呀！不吃便工作不了！不工作那谁来养我？”我心里想着。
In year 1992, I was diagnosed with anxiety panic attack – a kind of depression.
From then on, I began my long journey on medication…
Until this day, the symptoms still persist. Recently, a doctor told me, “Mr Wong, I believe you must be ‘hooked on drugs’ already! Try cutting down dosage please!”
“…but I can’t do without medication! If I don’t take medication, I can’t work! And who will support me if I don’t work?” I thought to myself.
这三幅“忧郁”作品便跟这病有关：
These three works on “Depression” thus evolved from dealing with this ailment bondage:
“忧郁一号”内里有一个浅灰色的大问号-似乎对自个患上这病存有不解。也同时藉着扭曲打结的身体来表现出患病的苦楚。除外也将药物散布在身体的四周...且还有一粒豆长出幼苗来-意指对上帝的信心仅剩那么的一丁点而已...但也相信这一点点的会逐渐茁壮。
“Depression #01” shows a pale grey question mark ‘?’ in the middle of the painting – as if posing queries about how I ever got into this sickness. At the same time, I use a twisted body to express the suffering caused by it. The medicine capsules are also seen spilling around…
There, in the midst, shows a sprouting shoot – symbolizing the meagre amount of trust in God, but also believing this little faith to grow eventually.
忧郁一号，混合媒介，三尺长四尺宽，二〇〇八年。
“忧郁二号”里有一十字路口，这意味着自己常觉得不知该朝哪一个方向奔去-是应该继续靠药物呢？还是藉着祷告？又或者可藉着某项特别的体操运动来克服？尿疗法又可不可行呢？
“Depression #02” shows a crossroad, mirroring my dilemmas of not knowing which direction to take often times – should I continue to depend on drugs? Or intervene through prayers? Or depend on certain exercises to overcome? What about “urine treatment”?
忧郁二号，混合媒介，三尺长四尺宽，二〇〇八年。
“忧郁三号”里的人物身体会比一号和二号更大幅度的扭曲夸大。图中出现了三个分别朝左，右和下的灰色箭头-这比着我常会应用“人”的方法来解决自身的病痛问题。（图中可见到没有朝上的箭头-意味着没有应用属“神”的方发来解决问题？）
“Depression #03” exaggerates the twists and turns of the body, preceding the first two works. Three arrows appear in the painting – sideways (eastwards and westwards), and downwards (southwards) – suggesting I must have used “human” methods to deal with my struggles too often. (There is no upwards/northwards arrow – perhaps hinting rarely applying “God’s” methods in solving problems?)
忧郁三号，混合媒介，三尺长四尺宽，二〇〇八年。 注：忧郁一号和三号里有加绘了一小罐医疗皮肤病的药膏-除了忧郁症外，我也常因皮肤敏感而苦恼不已！
P.S. : Depression #01 and #03 include a small cream container for skin problems – revealing the fact that besides depression, I am also affected by eczema (skin sensitivity) at times!
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